What's in a lie?

Today, as I sit here letting my computer work for me (one of the perks of being an animator), I find myself questioning my fears. And it's an interesting feeling to do such a thing, to really stop and look at the things holding me back and ask, "Who's voice is this and why am I listening?"

Why am I afraid to speak?

Why do I have trouble meeting someone's eye?

Why don't I talk louder?

Why do I refuse to sing in front of people?

So many questions, and today is one of those days when I feel unusually excited at them because, while I may still give in to them sometimes, it almost feels like in this moment, the clouds hiding the truth about my fears are thinning and God is giving me a chance to peak inside and see the foolishness of it all. And I can only hope and pray that I remember what I see when the clouds roll back in and the fearful temptations arise again, so that in that moment, I will see the lies for what they are and instead turn my focus on God and walk forward with confidence.